healing journey part 12: believe … GOD!

For, we walk by faith, not by sight.  2 Cor. 5:7

We live in a generation … a time and place where faith is little more than a positive thought … a wish, a hope and for some, perhaps, a prayer.  I’m going to ask you a question … do you believe God?  I’m not [...]

healing journey part 11: praise, and forget not

29 weeks brought severe chest and shoulder pain and after much deliberation it was determined I had pre-eclampsia.  I‘d had it since the beginning of the pregnancy, unnoticed.  God had purpose in the time I was able to carry our son and I treasure every moment we shared.  There was no solution, but to birth [...]

Healing Journey Part 10: His Plan, not mine

We had been talking about children and made a decision  … we’d start trying when I was 6 months seizure free.  That would have been  mid-May, 2010.  Enter in  … God’s plan …  much different, often, than our own.  We discovered February 5th that we were about a month in to a wonderful new thing [...]

Healing Journey Part 9: Weeks, Months & Years

Days turned into weeks, which turned into months that then became years.  In August of 2008 Grant informed me that during the depths of sleep one night I cried, “Jesus heal me, heal me quickly.”   More months passed.  We moved to Colorado in  May of 2009 and I continued the most active seizure year I’ve [...]

healing journey part 8: day 3

Though God had spoken clearly, he’d still given no indication regarding his timing for my healing.  Would it be days? Weeks? Months?  Maybe Years?  Knowing His plan was perfect I waited.  The excitement of healing, quickly turned to an expectancy towards God’s doing.  He wanted me to be looking and longing for Him, not the [...]

healing journey part 7: day 2

Mary  … Mary??? Which one? I racked my brain trying to get a grip on where I’d find Mary in the bible.  I should know this!  I however, was unable to come up with a passage and even then … maybe I had the wrong Mary.  When we are weak, He is strong.  Immediately, upon [...]

healing journey part 6: day 1

Really? …  I’d begun thinking again.    I still longed to be sure.  I said, “Lord, I’m spending the next three days seeking you about this specifically.”  I wanted not to doubt, but also not to run ahead with something if it was coming from a flawed desire in me. I continued reading the next day [...]

Healing Journey Part 5: The Message

I’d returned home from visiting family.  It was May 15, 2007.  Grant was on the road that night and I lay in our Chicago apt., soaking in silence.  Only the train rounding the bend occasionally interrupted what would have otherwise been serene.   I sat now, book in hand, purposing to finish what i had [...]

healing journey part 4: when we wonder and cry

Jeremiah 29:13: You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.

Conflict tore at my soul once again.  Every so often I’d question God’s plan in my life regarding the concept of healing.  Was he willing to heal me now?  I’d just returned home from my weekly bible study, having [...]

healing journey part 3: faithful affliction

Early in life, I began to understand this was God’s plan for me … for purpose.   Yes, he, my loving father, had allowed this, had even orchestrated it for my benefit in faithfulness to me.  As I spent time with him one morning he shared with me this verse:

I know, Lord, that Your judgments [...]