Really? … I’d begun thinking again. I still longed to be sure. I said, “Lord, I’m spending the next three days seeking you about this specifically.” I wanted not to doubt, but also not to run ahead with something if it was coming from a flawed desire in me. I continued reading the next day in Isaiah 43 and God began to confirm. God knows what we need. I was not demanding answers, but as I sought him he provided the clarity he knew I needed. He knew where my heart was and what I struggled with. I asked and He answered.
He spoke to me of who He was and who I was. My heart became filled with the majesty of Jesus and in those moments you know everything is possible.
Isaiah 44. Vs. 6-7 “This is what the LORD, the King of Israel and its Redeemer, the LORD of Hosts says: I am the first and I am the last. There is no God but Me. Who, like me, can announce the future?”
This is what he had done just the morning before … did I trust him?
Ours was a relationship and God presented me something to do that morning. In the stillness of this rejoicing he wanted me to ask for my healing, not doubting that it was he who would accomplish it. My heart was yet unsure if I was faithful or a doubter.
James 1:6, “But let him ask in faith without doubting. For the doubter is like the surging sea, driven and tossed by the wind. “