simply. grant and lois

It’s dark outside.  The crickets sing their song and the candles are lit reminding me that winter is on the way.  For the past weeks, I haven’t been writing much worth reading.   And so tonight, in the silence, I returned to a passage once brought to my attention by a friend.

It was many years ago [...]

January 24, 2011 … Jesus I love you!

‎”He will certainly accomplish what he has decreed for me” … Job 23:14

Remembering is important.  We named our son eben buay.  Eben is short for Ebenezer, meaning stone of help in Hebrew.  An ebenezer is a place of remembrance.   It allows us to recognize God has helped us [...]

Dreary exhaustion has taken over and I find myself excited to move forward, but struggling to make the steps.  I am in a new place, in a new year and much of the last season has already fallen away, but I can feel the remainder of all that has been, threatening to take hold.  Packing [...]

As many of you have read the past months have been full of joy, heartache, and the emotions that come from rejoicing in a new season, yet having it end all too abruptly and oh, so silently.   I want to be yielded to God’s plan and in the midst of this struggle God has met [...]

Set your mind on things above, not on earthly things. Col. 3:2

You may notice a slight gap here … I feel I’ve been in a sea of disappointment for the last few weeks and am swimming, but just barely, in the waters of all that’s unknown; and I want so much to understand.  But, I [...]

After Eben’s birth I was ready to throw caution to the wind … meds in the trash.  Wisdom and accountability, however, did not allow me this luxury.  Grant (my husband) was not in the place of abandoning reason … I believe God has given him much wisdom and as my head, before God, I am [...]

I find as people we are so quick to dismiss the workings of God in our lives.  We see him so clearly, but dismiss his power.  We stand in awe of his creation, but reason the science of it to something we can understand.  Isn’t there a beauty in not knowing?

At the same time I [...]

“How do you define healing?”  Sigh.  Sitting in my neurologists office just over a month ago now I was hearing the reality of my condition, the questions lingering in my dr., and the wisdom that comes from dealing with epilepsy day in and day out.  I had just had an eeg (measure of brain activity) [...]

Weeks faded away and before I knew it I was in the midst of another graduation.  My grandmother went to see Jesus and I know she is having the time of her LIFE!  My family, on the other hand, stayed behind and grieved the woman we have come to love so very much.  I cried [...]

We arrived home for good after several days of hospital recovery, a trip home and a trip back to the hospital for a DNC and another week of observation.  Exhausted, weak and an emotional wreck I wanted nothing more than to hide myself away and grieve in silence the son God chose to take home.  [...]