Set your mind on things above, not on earthly things. Col. 3:2
You may notice a slight gap here … I feel I’ve been in a sea of disappointment for the last few weeks and am swimming, but just barely, in the waters of all that’s unknown; and I want so much to understand. But, I was made to trust. God reveals, I trust … respond, and then he brings the understanding (though it may not always be what I was looking for).
We (I say we, because this is very much a joint effort between my husband and I) went off the meds, cold turkey on a Monday morning just about two weeks ago. A day and a half later I was staring into the faces of our ambulance crew and I knew exactly what had happened. But, how could this be? God said he was going to heal me. Yes, he did. And, he did. I realize that. He has been faithful to do what he said he would do. For now, I will leave you with the knowledge that he healed my heart. Maybe one day I will share the story.
However, I was now being faced with this reality … he’d not healed my body. Why, not? I’ve spent more than a few days thinking about God’s purposes … the fact is they are HIS. I didn’t hear him wrong, but I did assume physical healing was on the docket. I was wrong, at least for now. Spiritual, emotional, … well, to be honest these things never entered my mind. My mind was not on eternal things. This has been the process of God changing me … God, in his love has something greater, though right now … well, it doesn’t feel great! And, the knowledge that I’m far from perfect is completely in my face – ouch!
If someone (even God) were to say, “You are going to be healed,” what’s the first thing that would come to your mind? It’s just something to think about, for though we’re made for heaven we live so often according to the pattern of this world and it is not who we are meant to be!
Don’t get me wrong, God is definitely in the physical healing business and has healed my own body on occasion. But, if we’re more concerned with the physical than the eternal, with the things of the earth than those things above, I’m convinced we’re missing the purpose of God’s heart. I had to admit this last week my mind, though very much on God’s ability to heal, was not on things above. I go to church every Sunday, I read the bible every day … and I’ve been missing Jesus! It’s easy to get distracted with the things of this world. I don’t want to exist in that place … I want to LIVE!
I’m praying for you. Remember God heals us with the hands of others, such as doctors and medications.
Emotional and spiritual healing aren’t quite as easy as the first! Don’t miss the life God has given you, while on this journey. Look for joy around you, even thanks in taking the medication.
I have no answers for you. Only prayers. It must be very frustrating.
Many prayers continue.
Love,
Susan Owens
Amen Lois…although not personally experiencing this struggle, Lindsay and I serve with many who desire healing and it has been a journey trying to understand (as much as possible from this side of eternity) how God heals. Thanks for your candidness and transparency!