simply. grant and lois

Though God had spoken clearly, he’d still given no indication regarding his timing for my healing.  Would it be days? Weeks? Months?  Maybe Years?  Knowing His plan was perfect I waited.  The excitement of healing, quickly turned to an expectancy towards God’s doing.  He wanted me to be looking and longing for Him, not the [...]

Mary  … Mary??? Which one? I racked my brain trying to get a grip on where I’d find Mary in the bible.  I should know this!  I however, was unable to come up with a passage and even then … maybe I had the wrong Mary.  When we are weak, He is strong.  Immediately, upon [...]

Really? …  I’d begun thinking again.    I still longed to be sure.  I said, “Lord, I’m spending the next three days seeking you about this specifically.”  I wanted not to doubt, but also not to run ahead with something if it was coming from a flawed desire in me. I continued reading the next day [...]

I’d returned home from visiting family.  It was May 15, 2007.  Grant was on the road that night and I lay in our Chicago apt., soaking in silence.  Only the train rounding the bend occasionally interrupted what would have otherwise been serene.   I sat now, book in hand, purposing to finish what i had [...]

Jeremiah 29:13: You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.

Conflict tore at my soul once again.  Every so often I’d question God’s plan in my life regarding the concept of healing.  Was he willing to heal me now?  I’d just returned home from my weekly bible study, having [...]

Early in life, I began to understand this was God’s plan for me … for purpose.   Yes, he, my loving father, had allowed this, had even orchestrated it for my benefit in faithfulness to me.  As I spent time with him one morning he shared with me this verse:

I know, Lord, that Your judgments [...]

“It’s not a disease, it’s a condition.”  Filtering in and out, this phrase became a motto. When you have a condition it’s some comfort that “it’s not a disease”, but it also means you’re probably stuck with it.  Dwelling with epilepsy seemed difficult, disease or not, and it was still so unknown.  Those of us [...]