Though God had spoken clearly, he’d still given no indication regarding his timing for my healing. Would it be days? Weeks? Months? Maybe Years? Knowing His plan was perfect I waited. The excitement of healing, quickly turned to an expectancy towards God’s doing. He wanted me to be looking and longing for Him, not the healing he’d already promised. He is accompanied by good gifts, but to miss out on Him was to miss everything. What transpired in my time with the Lord that morning served to solidify my confidence in Him and cause my heart to rejoice in faith. God would be faithful to his promise!
I found in the weeks and months following a necessity to come always before the Lord to hear his heart and his voice on the matter and REMEMBER. Forgetting comes quickly, making succumbing to the lies that sneak in without warning so much easier. This was not my desire, nor was it my intention, but when God delivers his message the enemy is there attempting to steal, kill and destroy.
As soon as God spoke, confirming his message to me I knew I’d need to testify to what God was doing in my life. I’d grown up in a Christian home and “testimony” was a familiar word. Sharing Christ … well, it had been sharing who he was. I had a story, but allowing others to see Christ in me via such a personal message? And what if it was wrong … what if I was wrong?
Through struggle and obedience the Lord began to reveal the reality of my heart condition, the fear that lingered so deeply within me and as the calendar slowly turned I began to see more clearly. I was made to glorify JESUS, to reflect him, to be like him.
As I read I found out who he is:
John 3:32 He testifies about what he has seen and heard, but no one accepts his testimony.
And who I was to be:
John 14:12 I tell you the truth, anyone who has faith in me will do what I have been doing. He will do even greater things than these, because I am going to the Father.
Though the world seemed often against me, God provided a beautiful few to encourage my heart. God was asking me to believe and testify. Resting in him, obedient, I must continue to walk in faith … in hope, against hope (rom. 4:18).