After Eben’s birth I was ready to throw caution to the wind … meds in the trash. Wisdom and accountability, however, did not allow me this luxury. Grant (my husband) was not in the place of abandoning reason … I believe God has given him much wisdom and as my head, before God, I am to honor him. But, Grant was not on a journey towards my going off the meds. He wanted proof. What happens when God has spoken so clearly and your spouse is just not quite there?
If there’s one thing I’ve learned in marriage it’s this … no amount of nagging nor manipulation is as effective as letting God do his work in the life of your mate. When I do the work — disaster!!! So, I came before the Lord. I knew God had directed our hearts together on the matter of healing in the first place. Surely he could bring us into unison regarding its completion and the steps to take in light of that.
I watched in the next weeks God work his heart into ours. Grant’s heart began to turn towards getting off the meds … mine began a process of learning once again to wait. As we continued to pray and rejoice together God was bringing us to a place of unity.
We are waiting … some days I wonder why. But, God is working his plan in our lives and His purpose will prevail! Days go by and I’m still swallowing pills. In the grand scheme of things … pills or none, it’s really just about walking with Jesus. We may wander and fall and desperately struggle to survive this broken world, but the only way is Jesus … I’ll throw caution to the wind for Him … any day!
“If there’s one thing I’ve learned in marriage it’s this … no amount of nagging nor manipulation is as effective as letting God do his work in the life of your mate” Awesome that you get this.
Sometimes it’s really hard to stay the course when you can’t see the forest for the trees. Your right, there is a plan in this somewhere. What it is we won’t probably know until it has happened, or possibly passed you by. Keep steadfast in your faith and love and know your a princess in gods kingdom.